*sigh* Well, thats it, I failed....


I got 3 A's, 1 B.. but I got a D in the one of the classes i couldn't fail. You need atleast a C- to go on... And I know have to drop out of the major. I could re-take it next year... But it's a long waiting list so I doubt I'd get in. I have to have 9 freshman drop out in 7 months. I guess it's possible, but in the meantime, I've decided to stay at ringling for 1 more semester in the illustration major before I decide what to do for sure. I love Ringling, I do. Even though I don't have many friends, I don't wanna leave... It's, strange to describe, but a real big thanks goes out to my friend . He's the only one who really helped me think things through. So at least I have a bit of a plan for now...

I'm just a bit depressed. I'm sick of my roomate talking about how bad my art is behind my back, and what a bad person I am behind my back (I hear her talk about me and my friend tells me everything she says so,) I just don't care anymore, and if she needs to down my art to feel better about herself, well, than so be it. I just don't give a shit anymore. I'd try talking to her like a regular peron, but she likes to make it out like she's the victim no matter what the situation, so there's really no point. I'll let her have her moment in the sun if she'd like. I'm going to try and do alot of process work over break and try and just, I don't know, do SOMETHING. I also made a promise to myself that I'd make new friends since all the ones I had last year all disappeared. I just have alot of aquaintences, I'm going to try and connect more and really make an effort. It was like for the first time in my life, I didn't know what to do with my future. My plans for my future have been shot. I was just, so afraid. I've know what I've wanted to be and to do ever since the first grade. I kinda thought my dream was over you know? I feel like now I really need to prove myself... Do something, worth while, and do it now. I'm worried if I'll be looked at as a "hack" by my fellow, er... unfellow CA majors.... I'm so sad now just thinking about it...

Atleast I'm home now. I get to chill for a few days, see my pets, decide what to do a bit more... We'll see what happens. Something else thats good is that it's the season finale of the venture brothers is tonight. And I get to talk to tonight too. So that'll be nice. I'll have to think what I want to do tomarrow. Oh well....

*~ Da Masta Yoshi ~*

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BAD SHIT: Okay, I havn't updated my journal in a good forever. Wow, 3 months almost. new record. I've just been busy. REAL busy. I'm in danger of failing the once class I need to take to pass >.<. So I've been working on that and every other hardcore CA class to try and, I dunno, just be the best I can while TRYING not to pass out sleeping by just sitting on my bed. My bed is VERY dangerous. I can't work on it unless I'm doing fanart. I'll just fall asleep! I've completed 6 essays over break, a full scale animatic for Concept development that I'm JUST about done with, and the Asian Lit based journel for Asian Lit. But yeah... CA is the actual class I'm having trouble with, and this last assignment will determine wether or not I can move on to CA 2 next semester, or I am forced to switch majors.... or worse, schools..... >.< I'm so fucking NERVOUS. But.... it's my fault really. I goof off too much at night instead of working. I can't help it though. The amount of time I DO goof off with is like, maybe 3-4 hours tops if I'm not sleeping. But I've gotten better at that. >.< Now my failures have been based around the fact O hardly work on the weekends. I want to SLEEP on the weekends, not friggin, WORK..... I will admit though, it's fun work. Sort of. But, damn, I just need more time you know? Even as I type this I should be working on my walk cycle in MAYA. I'll do that straight away after this journal entry. But I only have till Thursday night to finish it. I also have a Traditional Animtion dance I need to complete which is do wednesday night X_x...... I'm just, really over worked.


GOOD SHIT:ON THE UPSIDE though, HAVE YOU SEEN ALL THE 21/24 and Dermott/Hank art coming out as of late? Mostly at Y Gallery, but still. IT'S FINALLY CATCHING ON!! Not that many of you care, not being fans and all, but I don't care if you care or not, cause I do! I've drawn a shit ton of work that I can't wait to upload! Xmas break It's gonna be all about the xmas, the family, the friends, and the Venture love'n. <333 *sigh* I miss my cats.



.... lets see.... what else is their to report? Uhhh..... lol, oh yeah! The season finale of the Venture Brothers is already upon us! AND I'LL BE HOME TO WATCH IT!!! Thank GOD! It's been a pretty intense season. I just can't wait to see how it all goes down between 21 and Brock. And I'm still hoping for some sort of ghost 24 interaction or... SOMETHING. SO MANY QUESTIONS THAT HAVNT BEEN ANSWERED!!!! PLEASE ANSWER THEM DOC AND JACKSON!!!

But, yeah. Thats all I can think of for the moment. I have a shit ton to do before my 8:30 class, so thats is what I shall go to do. Hope you guys are all livin it up er, whatever. See you soon peeps!

*~ DaMastaYoshi ~*

PS: I'm a complete Owl City bitch now. Fucking love them. <3

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Watched it last night AFTER all!!! Which was a pretty close call, because I almost missed it!!! Eric let me into his place to watch it but they didn't get Cartoon Network, I looked all over for a live streaming but alls I got was this Cartoon Network Plus nonsense (and time squad... it was an alright show, but NOT what I needed at the time!!) Spent a good hour and a half having the wonderful people at the Adult Swim Boards attempt to tell me whats going on, and also of course me lovely saves the day by signing on (only after a giant Traverse Town run around between facebook, DA, and AIM Express ) To tell me the JUCIEST bits of the first episode of the brand new season!!! When at last, she signed off...... some angel uploaded a crappy video camera feed to youtube... not that I cared, I just wanted ta WATCH it!! I think it's still there, and if not, it SHOULD be on Adult Swim by now.

I will NOT throw out any spoilers but omi god, omi god... I wanted to cry.... I had so many mood swings going on at once, and just this ONE scene!!!! OH!!! I shan't go into details!!!! But now I need myself a blackbeard's diamond treasure ring! (Preeeeeeeeetty much a fuckin enguagement ring if you ask me... XD) And if it wasn't obvious thanks to Dixie, I'm a Hank lover now. <3 His hair and cuddleyness is just to cuuute! Not that Dean isn't likeable. The hair just makes Hank all fluffly and more sensitive :cute:

But I JUST learned I have NO class next period, and I just made a cute sad little spoiler sorta not of a doodle in class!! so i'm gonna color it!!! bUT YES. As exciting as last night was, there was some crazy roomate issues as well. Oh well. Not like we havn't had these same problems before. Atleast this time I am just DONE trying to fix it. Not my problem. And it feels GOOD not to worry. I'm gonna split my time betwixed some food, coloring, and walking. Than off to the labs.... and re-watching that one season from the first episode again and again. You ever just listen or watch something so much the voice that you think with in your head BECOMES that? lol, I like how when I was crossing the street the 21 in my head kicked on and started talking to me. It had somethiong to do with work. Oh, but anyway, times a waste'n, I got some colorin ta do! ^_~

Later!!

*~ Da Masta Yoshi ~*

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........ LOL!!! I can't beleive they have a journal meme like this! I stumbled upon it this "morning" and was just like, "shit! what an extremely shallow and personal thing!!! Who would actually ANSWER these questions!?!? AHAHAHA!! I MUST STEAL IT AS MY OWN!"

and so.. here we are XDDDDD

WOULD YOU

[_] Come to my house to do nothing at all but chill?
[_] Fight me?
[_] F*ck me?
[_] Kiss me?
[_] Let me kiss you?
[_] Watch a movie with me?
[_] Go out to dinner with me?
[_] Let me drive you somewhere?
[_] Take a shower with me?
[_] Drink with me?
[_] Take me home for the night?
[_] Let me sleep in your bed?
[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[_] Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] Hold my hand?
[_] Let me make you breakfast?
[_] Help me with homework?
[_] Tickle me?
[_] Let me tickle you?
[_] Instant message me?
[_] Greet me in public?
[_] Hang out with me?
[_] Bring me around your friends?
[_] Be down with me no matter what?
[_] Go to prom with me?


DO YOU...

[_] Think I'm cute?
[_] Think I'm serious?
[_] Think I'm a good person
[_] Think I'm conceited?
[_] Want to kiss me?
[_] Want to cuddle with me?
[_] Want to hook up with me?
[_] Want to "do" me?
[_] Think I would do you?
[_] Love me?


AM I ...

[_] Smart?
[_] Cute?
[_] Funny?
[_] Sexy?
[_] Cool?
[_] Romantic?
[_] A "freak"?
[_] Gangsta?
[_] Lovable?
[_] Adorable?
[_] Trustworthy
[_] Compassionate?
[_] Great to be with?
[_] Attractive?
[_] Mean?
[_] Well known?


HAVE Y0U EVER ...

[_] Thought about hooking up with me?
[_] Found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] Wished I were there?
[_] Had a crush on me?
[_] Wanted my number?
[_] Had a dream about me?
[_] Been distracted by me?
[_] Looked at my page more than ten times?


ARE YOU ...

[_] Happy you know me?
[_] Horny?
[_] Thinking about me?
[_] Wanting to call me to talk about these things?
[_] Going to repost this?

Now YOU try!! If you're silly enough!

By the way, thanx everyone who replied in my last journal. I was really down, and it meant alot to hear some nice words. I love you all.

*~ Da Masta Yoshi ~*
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READ @ OWN RiSK: eM0 eNtrY:

Everything that makes me happy right now is either an illusion, or going to be taken from me in a short period of time... Unless you count these brownies.... no. No I guess they'll leave me too. Excretory system and all that fancy music.

*sigh* So, first Maya project we had was due today. Alls I had to do was render it and put it in Adobe Premere. It was late. Late by an hour. I got it finished during break. WOULDA HAD IT DONE if I had KNOWN everything or if there were open labs that HAD MAYA ELSEWHERE or if they OPENED UP EARLIER!.... but no. Nope. It's late. And it will be graded as such.

What sucks is that I think it's animated alot better than even more than half the class, but no. It still. Gets. A. Shitty. Grade.

I've been up since Sunday, and din't get any sleep till Tuesday morning because I've been working and working on shit nonstop. Just non fucking stop. I'm convinced I'm no longer aloud to have a social life anymore if I really wanna be on the top of my game. So unless it's the weekend I guess expect no sign of my existance online. I still have so many doodles I havnt uploaded or colored but even THAT small little chore eats up so much of my time now I can't do it... -______- It seems like if I'm not working, I'm only aloud to sleep. I don't have much time for eating either. WHich is great because I havn't had time to go to the gym, but still. TT______________________________________ ____________________TT I. need. A hug. Soon my furry little roomates (the ones with tails thank you) Will be bought and sold... So I'll have no one to cuddle with when I'm feeling blue. I can't bother Eric with it. Thats stupid. Plus I bug the poor kid enough when it comes to Maya as is. *sigh* I know how this sounds like I'm a whiney little...whatever the hell. I'm just a little down right now. It's not like I always need a shoulder ta cry on er nuthin. But ya know... sometimes it just helps.


*~ Da Masta Yoshi ~*
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